Adjustments

In the last two weeks, my life has turned upside-down. It all started when I ended my 3+ year relationship. You see, this was my first ever break up (aside from a week and a half "break" a few months ago), and I guess I didn't realize how it would affect every aspect of my life. So these past couple weeks, I've been adjusting to my new lifestyle.

First of all, there was the obvious adjustment. I had to get used to not talking to him, not knowing what was going on in his daily life, and not sharing what was going on in mine. Especially since we were feeling the same kind of pain, it sucked not being able to sympathize with him.

Call me crazy, but when I'm feeling down, I tend to rely on my strongest support systems to build me back up from nothing. Unfortunately, I was extremely disappointed. Most of my family and closest friends provided little support, if any, and that might have hurt even more than the initial break up.

Luckily, I did have friends come out of the woodwork that were there for me when no one else was, and one of my ex's and my mutual friends even reached out to me after a week or so. The people who did provide support were the ones I didn't expect to, and the people who didn't support me were the ones I needed most.

While it's going to take far longer than 2 weeks to overcome such a change in my life (while still balancing a nursing program that is getting exponentially more difficult and a new promotion at my job), I'm finally realizing who I can count on and who I lost.

I guess I learned the hard way that when you break up with someone, you lose more than just one person.