I've been so busy lately that I feel like I haven't really had time to catch my breath. As most know by now, I'm in school full-time. Additionally, I'm working at the Italian restaurant where I've worked on-and-off since I was 16. Here's the tricky part: I am paying for the time intensive school, but in order to pay for this silly school, I need to work lots of hours at this restaurant. Most of my days consist of school in the morning with work most evenings and almost all weekend. Lucky for me, I have been able to balance my studies, so my school work isn't suffering. Unfortunately, it's my body and social life that have been unhappy with me.
School is exhausting. Anyone who says differently didn't work hard enough. It's mentally exhausting which can be as bad as being physically exhausted, which I am, because I work until late at night and by the time I get home, decompress, and take a shower, it is way past when I should have gotten to bed. Oh and if I have a test the next day, forget it, I'll be up even later hurriedly finishing review sheets and cramming information about the human body into my already tired brain.
In the next 48 hours, I'm going to be at work for 20 of them. I guess the frustrating thing is it's not like I'm working hard to go on some excellent vacation or buy some awesome clothes or pamper myself at the spa. I'm working my ass off to pay for the privilege to work my ass off somewhere else. I understand this isn't a permanent situation, and this school is the fastest ticket to getting me to the job I really want that will pay what I really deserve, but right now I can complain a little bit, right?
Anyway, I just finished my second "mod" at school. You see, I have 13 mods throughout the 15 month course. Yes 2 out of 13 isn't much, but it's a start. And after this next one, I'll begin clinicals at actual hospitals, which will be completely awesome, even if I'll just start out changing bed pans.
Another bright side, I complain about how much I have to work, but I conveniently left out that I absolutely adore my job. I get paid a fairly hefty amount to look nice and greet customers while socializing with my friends and eating Italian food. It sometimes just sucks to be on my feet and walking around for several hours a day, which doesn't even come close to burning the amount of calories that I consume in pasta, fried zucchini, calimari, and tiramisu, but I'm too tired and ache-y to convince myself to go on a run most of the time.
Other news: It looks like John and I have finally started narrowing down potential apartments for us to live in. Of course, in my poor state, I won't be moving out of my parents' house until after school, but it's cool to be looking at apartments that he'll be living in for a year before I come in and take up all of his closet space.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Green
Green with envy.
Grass is always greener.
Moving onto greener pastures.
Why is it that this color represents so much? Green can symbolize anything from luck to money to envy to nature. I've just been kind of surrounded by phrases such as the ones previously mentioned lately. My best friend in the whole world, Alli, is moving on to greener pastures Monday. Technically, it's far less "green" since Richmond has many more trees and shrubbery than the Windy City.
Also, I was contemplating the idea that the grass is always greener on the other side. Are we so spoiled as a society that what we want isn't enough? Once we get it, we want the opposite. A single teenage girl desperately wants a boyfriend. Until she gets one. And then after a few months she envies (green with envy) her single girl friends. Nothing is ever enough. We always want more. Or maybe everyone just likes complaining. The doctor who has worked his whole life to become great at what he does only to grunt about the long hours and less-than-stellar patients. The little boy who wants a puppy more than anything in the world, but neglects it after a new toy has caught his interest.
Why is it that people are this way? As a scholar of the sciences, I am fascinated by this. How is this evolutionarily advantageous? All I can think is that it's a ploy for us to get sick of each other and create a more genetically diverse society by getting sick of sexual partners. But I digress...
Maybe we should think more about what we want and don't want. Why do we want these things? What's so much better about this greener pasture? Why do you envy someone who probably is just as envious of you? How come having everything still isn't enough? Why do we all want more?
The point is, we will all continue to act the way we have as a race until something significant happens like an ice age, but maybe we should use our higher knowledge to examine why and how we think this way.
I don't have a smart way of ending this post, and it's really kind of just become a series of random thoughts that have popped in my head, but I'm trying not to just write thoughts and then delete them. I'll think of it as a half-year resolution. Happy 2010 1/2!
Grass is always greener.
Moving onto greener pastures.
Why is it that this color represents so much? Green can symbolize anything from luck to money to envy to nature. I've just been kind of surrounded by phrases such as the ones previously mentioned lately. My best friend in the whole world, Alli, is moving on to greener pastures Monday. Technically, it's far less "green" since Richmond has many more trees and shrubbery than the Windy City.
Also, I was contemplating the idea that the grass is always greener on the other side. Are we so spoiled as a society that what we want isn't enough? Once we get it, we want the opposite. A single teenage girl desperately wants a boyfriend. Until she gets one. And then after a few months she envies (green with envy) her single girl friends. Nothing is ever enough. We always want more. Or maybe everyone just likes complaining. The doctor who has worked his whole life to become great at what he does only to grunt about the long hours and less-than-stellar patients. The little boy who wants a puppy more than anything in the world, but neglects it after a new toy has caught his interest.
Why is it that people are this way? As a scholar of the sciences, I am fascinated by this. How is this evolutionarily advantageous? All I can think is that it's a ploy for us to get sick of each other and create a more genetically diverse society by getting sick of sexual partners. But I digress...
Maybe we should think more about what we want and don't want. Why do we want these things? What's so much better about this greener pasture? Why do you envy someone who probably is just as envious of you? How come having everything still isn't enough? Why do we all want more?
The point is, we will all continue to act the way we have as a race until something significant happens like an ice age, but maybe we should use our higher knowledge to examine why and how we think this way.
I don't have a smart way of ending this post, and it's really kind of just become a series of random thoughts that have popped in my head, but I'm trying not to just write thoughts and then delete them. I'll think of it as a half-year resolution. Happy 2010 1/2!
One year
Exactly one year ago I was over the Atlantic Ocean (probably hyperventilating due to my fear of flying) and on my way to the beautiful, small town of La Rochelle. I still miss it every day.
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